I posted previously about what I
call ‘Sadly Single Days’. The days when being alone shifts to being
lonely and you long for the companionship and support that comes as a part of
being in a healthy, stable relationship. I quote, "while generally content to chase my dreams, while
waiting for that magical day when I either by plan or by chance encounter the man God chose specifically for me, today is what I secretly refer to as a “Sadly
Single” day.”
I quote this post
because over the last year or so I have
sporadically been having dreams about a particular gentleman. They’re
not sexual dreams; they’re not physically intimate in any way, but they are
lingering and thought-provoking. When the dreams began I took them
as a sign to become more committed to personal fitness (the gentleman is a
personal trainer), and as a result began to eat better and exercise more. When
I began to stray from the path, I began dreaming about this gentleman again and
was certain that my personal fitness journey was the reason why he was invading
my psyche…until recently.
Recently I have been eating
relatively well, especially given the holiday season, but the dreams have
returned. Because I have been [relatively] remaining on track, I
began to question further why this particular man is invading my dreams. Seeking
insight from friends, I was told that I have a crush on this man. I
immediately dismissed the theory, not finding myself in the slightest bit
physically attracted to him. One friend suggested he could be set aside by God
as my husband, not knowing that I’ve been around him more than a decade and
never really noticed him until a few years ago.
My thoughts were such that, if he were set aside for me, God’s opportunities to bring us together have been unending. That’s what I was thinking, but I said, “God wouldn’t give me a husband and make me have to throw away all my shoes!” The man is significantly short, so much so that I am wearing flats in all of my dreams about him, despite not actually owning any flat shoes. Though I responded to one friend in this fashion, my response to my best friend, who’s been present the entire time I’ve known this man, was quite different.
My thoughts were such that, if he were set aside for me, God’s opportunities to bring us together have been unending. That’s what I was thinking, but I said, “God wouldn’t give me a husband and make me have to throw away all my shoes!” The man is significantly short, so much so that I am wearing flats in all of my dreams about him, despite not actually owning any flat shoes. Though I responded to one friend in this fashion, my response to my best friend, who’s been present the entire time I’ve known this man, was quite different.
When I told my best friend, I stated
that I’d eaten junk food before bed and had a nightmare. She made
clear that she didn’t think it a nightmare at all and that he’s a really great
guy. Such a great guy that I began to more deeply evaluate the
reasons why I might be dreaming about marrying a man that I’ve never even
flirted with or found myself attracted to. In so doing, we found
that aside from the physical, he is everything that I reference on my
relationship need list. He is the “spiritual,
socially aware, health conscious, educated, lover of God and family” that I
find myself in wanting to someday wed.
Though I can’t say
why I’m dreaming about him, I will say that in recent months I have had
everyone from friends to complete strangers and even my daughters teacher, try
to “hook me up”, causing me to evaluate some of my relationship hang-ups. Years
ago, at a time in my life when I had a very specific height requirement (which
David Banner exceeds…but I digress) I remember telling my best friend’s mom
what I was looking for in a guy. Her response was that, though she
didn’t do it, most women wed within 3 inches of their natural height. I
IMMEDIATELY dismissed this, as a lover of 5+ inch heels, but the last dream and
conversation with my best friend really made me think. I have never trusted
anyone to “hook me up”. However, if there were ever a being that you
can completely trust to “hook you up” with the right person, it’s God. Do
I believe that this man has been set aside for me or that we’ll ever interact
in a fashion other than the way we do now…not really, but I do know that if it
ever came up, I would probably buy some flat shoes!!
Too often we allow
what we want or what we think is best for us to cloud our hearing and
understanding of God’s nudging of our spirit. Don’t let your hang-ups
deter you from being open to what God has for you, whether it be in a marriage,
relationship, or any other blessing He has in store for you. Be
mindful of the Spirit leading you in the right direction.
Follow Me as I Follow God.
- @RevealingRuth
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